Journal excerpt... May 18/11

   I know I only have a few minutes Jesus but I am again wondering about all the thoughts and lack of emotions that this time has brought me into. Being and feeling passionate is such a deep delight. But that is part of the point, I think, I would go so far as saying it is part of the refining or testing of my faith... not the existence of it but the depth of it.

   Let's see, some of the incomplete thoughts are... don't demand of you a comfortable life - value knowing You more. When I don't feel You I am learning that You are still just as much there and that I need to learn to ask better questions... or look at situations from Your perspective.  I need to understand what letting go of my own motives really looks like.