March 14/11... journal entry...

Day 6.  Jesus, so I have managed in this lent so far to disobey Your leading in youth... Be closed off enough during a leadership meeting to only see my point of view and not understand where the actual leader was going. I have been delaying responding to an email and I think that this is spreading an effect inside myself by not being able to explain my point of view that makes me feel like the odd man out in a way and am more defensive overall. Not good. However... my own fault for not stepping up.  What is that? I can't seem to get my head in the game today so I want to ask You Jesus... please help me let go and focus on You as I do my daily work and chores. I need You.

    So.  What I know...

My desire for this lent is really to have conscious dedicated time to You everyday. Learning to have You as my comfort instead of what is physical and is around me. Letting go of coffee reminds me of that.

I know I want to learn to be more concerned with Holiness than to manage or be successful or comfortable. I don't know what steps You will take me through to get to that as a constant mindset?

If my mindset is right I will by default be living in Your Freedom.

If I am living in Your freedom that is saying that I am being led by Your Spirit.

If I am being led by Your Spirit I am also existing in You... I am in the Spirit.

If I am in the Spirit I display the fruits of Your Spirit.

Being a part of a body... we most often display more prominently different kinds of fruit.

If we recognize what fruit we tend towards we also can work more seamlessly together because we see where we fit together; where another leaves off as another fills in etc...

huh I wonder if that was where Mr. B was going at the leadership meeting lol? I kinda think so.