What if...

April 23/12  Journal entry.

Dearest Reader,
   The other day I was having one of those I really need Jesus days.  The kind where I tend to bumble about trying to keep afloat in the swelling ache and need of my heart or of being lost in it.  A friend suggested I go to Jesus and ask Him 'what if' ... and see what He had to say. 

What if....

What if I walked into the room right now?

What if You stayed?

What if I did?

I'd cry.

What if....

What if I've already told You what to do. And what is coming?

Then You are asking me to obey (obedience out of love)... and to probably stop thinking (anticipating) so much and be present for each moment.

What if I feel really weak and that I want You to be here with me more than I want my next breath?

What if?

Well I suppose then, you may have just caught a portion of how deeply I want to be with you too.



What if I have missed the boat Jesus? What if I never get in the boat? What if I miss the point and forever have wasted the time You gave me here?

Do you love me?

Yes.

Then I suppose you haven't missed it at all.