Seeing

March 28/ 12... my last entry for today lol...

   The main reason I am back is because I wanted to spend some more time with You on the roof. The evening sun seems to reflect the calm and satisfaction I feel deep inside of being with You. We lay flat on our backs... content to look up into the sky watching the clouds scuttling by and gradually the mood of it shifts into a time of twilight.  I do not desire to move even a muscle right now except to feel Your fingers intertwined with mine. I suppose we can even talk or communicate without speaking a word aloud. It's like we are one... You have always known what is in the deepest parts of me and understood me before I could. I have spent years reacting without considering the source or root but You knew all along. I feel like a display of my many emotions... passions... grasping to understand... now dance across the sky in colors and movement. It isn't embarrassing nor do I cringe to see it so bold and out there but I lay here, just watching. It is me... crazy old me. And it is You showing me me which is pretty much the deepest kind of sharing. For there is no judgement.

As the last vestiges of the day's light extinguishes we find ourselves sitting back on the edge of the building this time facing south and west. The air is real warm. And it doesn't seem to take very long before the clouds completely disappear and reveal a crazy clear night sky. In fact it is so dynamic and sparkling that it's almost loud. haha. I lay down on my back with my head on Your lap to better look into the sky.
What do you see? 
You.