the cup

June 27/12.  Journal entry.

   So here I am another fasting breakfast morning and ironically it was my hungry stomach that reminded me it was Wednesday lol. So this morning is all about You (as every waking and sleeping moment should be) and I am here to seek out Your heart and KNOW You. Before I bring anything before You is there anything You want to say to me?

You are on the right track.

Did I overstep my boundaries by sharing?

You know there are things that are between us and may remain so for a long time but why is that, ask it...

because I still don't want anyone to know about it

... so pride? fear? self protection?

Yes.

In loving people with my love you will find yourself more and more open and free because it isn't about you per say but about Me and what that means to them and the bigger picture, glorifying Me. So is it wrong to share what you are excited about? Whether you understand it or not? Whether you have words to accurately explain what you are experiencing? Even if you share something which you misinterpret something happens in the exchange. Love. Vulnerability in sharing, your confidence or finding them worthy to share with. Perhaps a seed that things should be looked at again and then again... questioned and pushed. I ask you to love and be alive... not to be perfect.

Hahaha, I remember that.

You smile with assurance and warmth and I see You push an empty cup towards me. I take hold of it and of course look inside lol. I hold it as if it held some treasured hot drink to be savored and look up into Your face.

I can fill that... I will fill that. Don't you.

Okay.