Journal entry Sept. 12/ 10.

   Jesus it is Sunday morning and I am wondering why do I wake up nervous every Sunday? Is it just a very good reminder to put it squarely in Your hands? Jesus I want Your Words to be spoken, I want to give all that I am to serve and love You out loud.

   Can we quickly meet before I go out and face the big world?

   We seem to be back on the mountain.... looking over the cliff and I am sitting on Your lap resting back against You. Even though the air is crisp with newness there is no discomfort. It actually just makes things more exciting. I take time to look at Your hand that has held mine so many times. Your hand is big and strong .... it's a hand that has handled everything. And well. You hang onto us for impossibly long times when we are lost and unable. You soothe and wipe away tears with a touch. You connect with us in laughter and delight and release. You are so fun. You are so real. You send me to my knees in awe and thankfulness and love from a deeply humbled heart. My time slips away and I will have to get ready soon.
 
   Jesus I'm back I have no where I want to be but here. Hey is there anyone who needs to be here with us?
 
  Okay that's cool... lol... The man from the village. The first man we prayed for; he has a pretty big smile on his face. He's just gotten here from an early morning climb :) huh. He makes me want to laugh out loud in delight. He looks pretty satisfied as he sits looking over the cliff and into the expanse stretched out in front of us. Does he see us? I get the feeling he doesn't ... weird. I like being near him.... hang on... it's You in him... NICE! He looks over as if overhearing my thoughts and gives me a wink. This is all apart of my learning to see isn't it. I get up and walk over and sit on the opposite side of him ... now it is the three of us You, him and me side by side. I'm really close to You aren't I... even over here. lol. What I mean is when I am anywhere and I look and love and desire to serve the one You send my way I am going to be really close to You. You will be in that person, I just need to see it. And when I catch that vision I will catch something deeper. I will catch perspective, desire and purpose, I will catch that the You in him wants to be as free as possible to love and minister and heal and give life to the one You are in and to shine out of and to work through... You don't want to be left as "unreachable", You don't want to be given up on, ... what we do to the least of these we do unto You. Huh that makes reaching out a whole lot less scary cause You are already there and I know (basically :) what You want.