Jesus hanging onto my hand

Dear Reader, 
   There has been a bit of a pause in my blogging as of late but for a very interesting reason.  However, before that comes out I do want to finish off my summer journal and catch up to some current time blogs  lol.
Here is my Journal entry from Aug 24/10

   Morning Jesus... It is a new week and a significant one at that. The last week of summer. I am just crazy wanting to know You more this week.

   Hmmm.... this summer. You have been declaring Your presence in each rainfall. You carry me when I cannot. You fill me with feeling when I have no clue how or what to feel. You have drawn me closer to You. You have taught me to do this more during the day than just when I journal. You have helped heal some pretty deep hurt and resentment. You have been busy this summer. Thank You with all that is in me. I love You.

   Where are we? We are sitting opposite each other. (I love that cause it means we are looking right at each other) I can not possibly ever be close enough to You. I can not help but smile out of my awe and delight at being in Your presence. What do I need to hear today Jesus? My voice. Okay.... help my ears be open and hearing please. What do I need to see today? My face. I want this with all my heart. Does anything else matter more highly than this? No. What about stress? No. What about being organized and worried and consumed with getting things done the way you want? No. I will seek Your face, Your righteousness, Your voice, I will respond to You and walk in Your ways and I will trust You to carry me through this time of not having whatever I think I need. Jesus... I will hang onto You when I feel those things rising up.
   We are walking. It feels like a darker path perhaps more a fall path? But without colors, huh. We reach for each other's hand and when we actually grasp hands it is a strong grip. It radiates comfort and strength and desire through me. That's something for today isn't it... feeling the strength of Your hand holding mine. Nice.


It's still today but I have to end it with You Jesus. Holy Holy Holy. I just love You so much Jesus. I can not breathe without You.

You got me through this day.
You hung onto my hand.

I do not know what to write.... I want to tell You just how much my soul and body and mind love You but I am without words that even come close.
   Does anyone need us tonight Jesus? Is the girl okay? What I see is something exciting and beautiful. She is happy and running about in the forest with wonderful delight of purpose... she is creating. She sets up with twigs and vines around what is like crystal all around her hut and down paths. Their sole purpose is to reflect light in a way that is so beautiful. And because they are hanging there doesn't seem to be anywhere they cannot be... as they sway on breezes and with forest movements the light flashes and splashes seemingly everywhere. And it isn't just light that is playing there is laughter too that is carried on and on into the forest like a call of hope. I fail to be able to express the depth of this beautiful moment. hmmmm. :)