Dear Reader,
    This next post is an excerpt from my journal Sept 10/10.  There are times in taking leadership that things for a moment spin out of control... inside.  Feeling overwhelmed... at a loss for direction or having ability... and at times it's fear.  This was one of those moments. 

   Jesus can we hang out somewhere? How about somewhere we can only hear. You want to close your eyes anyways? :) Okay. In the darkness I feel You grab and hold my hand. You pull me in to the crook of Your arm and I sit without moving. Nothing is pulling me any direction and it feels somewhat like when I lay down on a super comfortable bed and I sink in and feel the tenseness drain out of my body. You are sweet Jesus. To be willing to just sit here with me. I try to think but I can't yet it hurts too much in the back of my head. This is going to sound so bizarre to anyone that reads this but the only thing I know is that You do have a scent. The other day while driving home from grocery shopping I caught a smell and it made me think instantly of You. To link a smell or scent to You is significant because in my mind it is only with a closeness hard to descibe that this is so. The reason I linked it to You the other day was because it was in the middle of nowhere and when I caught it like I said my thoughts went instantly to You and experiencing You being very near.