Dearest Reader,
   I'm so glad you are here... welcome.  Pull up a chair, grab a hot drink and join Jesus and I. 
Journal entry Sept 13/10

   Morning Jesus, I just realized I meant to look in Your Book before coming here this morning, opps. I would love to talk to You about the whole word leadership that I've heard come up this weekend. Huh. And I want to get more from You about the whole Sunday thing. I think, though, that I want to first thank You so deeply for yesterday morning, that was the coolest ... a meeting, a lesson, an understanding huh.


   Where would You want to meet this morning Jesus? Oh cool... we are outside of the building. We are across the street from it, in it's shadow, sitting on a park bench. That's something to note. There are two park benches, kind of on angles, on the wide sidewalk. The street lamps that line the street are an old fashioned kind that leaves the wanderer of these streets with a pretty cool feeling. There are also two trees growing here, they are still pretty young but beautiful... lots of leaves yet thin enough to let the dappled light play on the sidewalk. We seem to do alot of the sitting and thinking or just sitting and being together. I've come to relish these times.  I suppose if I had to put it into words it feels like alot of things. It feels like loving ... it feels like preparation or the opposite letting what has happened sink in... it often feels like we are talking even though it isn't with words or is with very limited action, kind of like... hmmm... soul talking? Which I've come to feel at different times (or recognize). Dear Reader... remember when I saw myself talking and being with Jesus but I didn't know what we were talking about and that stumped me for a moment but then I caught it we do that alot .. it's like our souls often talk out of that deep need and want to be together and it doesn't always require my conscious mind to put words to it. What would it look like to see it? It would be... two people, enamoured with one another, that talk about everything and want to know and experience everything that the other has... their dreams, plans, wonderings and revelation of the dark and sad places, the struggles, the failures... but also the victories, the things learned and dreams borne of that ... it is the desire to connect so deeply and never be separated but only bound tighter by it all... love, pain, understanding, delight, laughter, wonder and the continual experience of a closeness that is never sated.