Still in the ocean with Jesus

Journal entry... Aug 5/10

   Morning Jesus, I don't know if we have left our ocean yet. I've been thinking, it just seems that there is so much that no one will ever understand of what happens between us; except You and I. That, in the past, has made me feel very lonely and separated but I think I don't need to. I think the hardest thing to describe is just that depth of passion and love and hunger for You.  In the same breath, however, I don't think I will stop sharing those feelings and experiences I have with You for whether anyone understands or not; who knows what You want to use out of it all. While working in my shop this morning I felt something very exciting... while thinking of You I had that "I can't believe You're in love with me and I for You" realization.  When it hit me I physically felt flip flops in my stomach and that tightness in my chest.


   So are we still here? My first reaction is that yes we must be because of how I feel for You. You have taken me away from everything but You and have been stripping off the marks of the world. For instance, when I thought of what usually is a trigger for anger and resentment I instead thought of peace, forgiveness and a desire to set things right.  When someone didn't understand what I shared.. I wasn't crushed. Hmmm. I will die for You Jesus every day. My hearts aches so.... for You. 

   Well I guess I'll go back to my work I just wanted to check in with You. Hang on.. is there anything You want to say to me? I have been rambling alot lol. Look at Me Tam... look at Me and know Me. Know Me and My love for you. Feel it and hang onto Me. I am crazy about you... I have plans for us. I love You. Give what I give you to all those around you... like in a ridiculously abundant way cause you can't possibly out give what I give lol. Oh we are so still in this ocean! The honor of being in a place just solely with You.  To feel like all Your attention is just on me is crazily mind blowing. Yah I get what You are saying to me. I feel it inside and I think I understand what the words mean where the well will never run dry and that there is no need to thirst You are right here amongst us. Holy, Holy, Holy. Thank You Jesus over and over. I know You love us all in this crazy intimate way and that it is expressed so wildly in so many ways.  The beauty of Your creative ways to reach us are inconceivable really and oh so breathtaking in their beauty as they come together as You have designed. You are my God, You are my King, You are my Love. Holy, Holy, Holy.