Part III  A Call

   Hi Jesus... I cannot help but feel You so close right now.  The yearning to speak and be with You is so strong that it's almost like my soul is speaking and connecting with You before my physical body stops doing the day to day and sits and acknowledges.  Curiously, life doesn't stop around me and I still am interacting with it... amazingly tonight it is to enjoy my kids here and there... what a treat. 
   But I am here now, again.  Need to Breathe is playing the Garden and they definitely touch me with their music, singing it from within.  You can hear it without sight and you can see it as you watch them. 
   I would love to visit about deep things.  I have to admit after talking to Mr. B I wonder what Your voice sounds like.  Oh and that moment last night, while KC and I were riding, was freaky cool.  There I was riding along, pretty much in silence, and wondering what Your face would look like while gazing up into the clouds.  Everything was there... deep and dark storm clouds that were pierced in between with the brilliant bright blue of clear skies.  Red clouds of the sun setting and some clouds that were so deep and in layer after layer.  So here I am gazing up when all of a sudden I realize Your face could be the whole sky.  It shocked  and scared me in that split second... in the face of a HOLY GOD who am I way.  It was a clear enough thought that it physically made me look from side to side to take in more than what my gaze could... Jesus I love You.  Real bad.  I wonder if there is any way I can love You fully while I am here on earth?  Huh, that has got me thinking.
   Doing everything for You... in love for You and of You. 
(Dearest Reader... take a moment if you will and pray that you will feel what the Spirit wants you to know with that one... perhaps a call to a deeper level?)
   This connects back to my Brother Lawrence experience that, as of late, I have let go of but long to get back to.  Now even more so...  Jesus I have missed You. 
   I am sitting on our boulder still lit up by the setting sun.  I wrap my arms around my legs and look into Your face.  You laugh with delight and amusement.  I see You Jesus, I see You.  And I see you  Tam.  I know.  Jesus did I do any damage when I talked with my friend?  Go.  Go and be excited with her about Me.  You have wanted to since you left, so do it.  Can You deepen my understanding about what was shared about the church?  The 5 percent?  Overall I don't like labelling but it gets a point across which I am okay with.  Really, if we get living in You... like really being You; I suppose it may be a small percent but I don't think that is how You made us... we are content with, or settle for, far too little.  And before I lose this thought completely I want to connect to the phrase... We need to know who (whose) we are.