A new view

Dec 3/11... journal entry

   Okay my coffee was hot 15 minutes ago when I first sat down lol... should have hid in my room longer this morning!
   I'm back... gotta love microwaves!

Jesus I love You. Thought I better put that out there right away. I love how every time I take a bit of time to myself... I am drawn very quickly to You instead. Our meetings in these last days have been staying with me ... calling me back. This is all the more sweeter in the fact that in the exact same situation before last lent I felt the extent of my selfishness and moaned over it yet couldn't break free at all. Therefore I know by experience that where I am today is due to Your mercy and presence in me. I revel in that... like the sip of a long awaited drink that not only exceeds your anticipation but awakens all your senses in delight.... and time slows down. 
So I will be walking into one of my most dreaded scenarios today ... shopping and spending money yikes. I dread it every time. So my Jesus please fill me ridiculously full and give me a way to engage and be very present for my kids and be able to creatively look at and handle all that comes my way.

You are so sweet.

I want one day to be able to express what has been waiting for so long to be unleashed within... big creativity. Abstract combined with objects in light.

   We are south of the river today and we are climbing. Up and up we go on earth padded heavily with moss, it is just a game trail we follow.  This place makes me feel alive. Trees and the woods in general are just so full of possibilities and emotion. Secrets and the rarely seen that even when glimpsed changes so easily in different lights. I walk drinking in all I can. 
   Eventually I see more light filtering in up ahead and know we are almost out of the heavy wood. It is almost a shock to the senses to have the landscape change so dramatically, so immediately. We are now at the bottom of a rock slide area that is filled with shale and in contrast massive boulders of rock that leave the imagination reeling on what sound they would have made coming down. We climb just as ways more and there is a ledge that invites us to stay and look. You sit first and immediately draw up Your knees and lean back against the cliff face behind us. You don't look at me and that makes me quickly want to settle to take in what You are seeing. As soon as I settle down crossing my legs in anticipation of being here a while I am caught by what meets my eyes. 
   We are just high enough to see a wild and panoramic view of where we have been the last few days. Hmmm.