April 4/11
Day 27 of lent

    Morning Jesus, somehow it just feels like a brand new day! or season? or outlook! Enough of the winter season is succumbing to the touch of spring .... How are You today Jesus? Help me to spend all day with You.  Love You.

    The day has become a familiar gray. The reclusive shroud put around one's shoulders when time slows down till you can hear it. I want to live purposefully today despite surroundings and what is going on within. After a month of wrestling with and looking at the struggle of flesh and Spirit ... I tire of self (again). There is no one around me that doesn't know intimately the reality of this war and so I want to renew my vision of just being Yours. Choosing You moment to moment and asking You to enable me to choose Holiness over comfort and security. To explore what freedom in You is ... by experience.

    Just was thinking that while I can choose my steps (to a degree) it is another thing altogether when apart of a body (church body). I cannot explain or talk anyone into my experience yet I know there are things I want them to know and accept and live but I suppose freedom in You touches here too... I'll have to let You do the talking. I will live and share when prompted but I will not hold the expectation on them to see, understand, or accept (or even hear) that way disappointment and striving will not be necessary. huh. That sounds right.