The first day of June. Wow time goes so fast. I have to laugh in a sad pathetic way this morning cause after worship on Sunday I realize just how much better I could have spoken about where You had me last week. I missed getting across soooo much. How does that make You feel? Somehow I don't think You are disappointed yet logically (humanly) I'm not sure why... lol... just showing how raw I am I guess and that so much more work is necessary.
Oh yah... I did alot of praying without my keyboard yesterday I think I'd better write some of it down...
I think the most significant was the river...
Wow when I reread it, it seemed so short but it was such a deep and powerful time! It seemed to be a very long time when I wrote it... hmmmm. Anyways... later on I went back to see what had happened and You both were on the shore now in the heat of the sun. I didn't think it was right to be right there with You both so I, at first, was on the opposite shore but that was much too far from You so I went instead half way across the river to a large boulder and sat upon it as I watched. You were both sitting side by side facing the river and a few different things happened. One was You ... pouring into him again Your love and it squeezed out the cold and wet and things of the past. I saw You lean close to Him and pull him into You with an arm around his shoulder. You were speaking to him a many ways... at one point You were drawing in the sand between You as You spoke... finally You both got up and I knew the river had changed. It was no longer cold. And as You both stepped into the shallows I leapt up from my rock and could not help but jump in and run over to You. I jumped on Your back and we all laughed and goofed around together. Oh yah... you were both wearing sandals now.
Hey Jesus... I just have no idea where You are taking me in all this but I am sooooo needfully dependent on You. (I like that :-) So where will we go today? OHHHHH and that was so gracious of You to respond to my pleadings before church. First through Ray and then through Mr. B... about Scripture and experience. Thank You also for making it so gentle. Help me hear Jesus... help me hear. I love You , I love You, I love You...