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Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Oh God, I want to hold Your hand

Journal entry... Jan 11/13

   Hey Jesus... so my prayer this morning has played out extremely literal today haha.  Unable to move ahead I have taken each moment forward with You.  I couldn't seem to make the smallest decisions and had no strong motivation to decide which direction to take ... what I knew needed to be done, what I wanted to get done, and how I could escape it all.  Interesting.

   So the image of the hands has stayed with me and I find myself trying to find that message in other places and things and stories.  I want to touch You Jesus.  I want to be in that place where our hands meet ... our souls.  I am literally lost without You... and desire nothing but You.

   I want to write down a phrase that has come up two mornings in a row now during our time together.  It is about making love to life and I know that is a real weird way to say it but I think it is more accurate than not.  To love, adore, cherish, connect with all that encompasses my life is loving You in a way that it true.  The people in my life don't need to deserve it or ask for it or ??? but I should freely give it because I can and because I am full of You.  I can love moments and circumstances in how they reflect You or reveal You.  I can allow the dark and weary times serve to make even more luminous the light and life of You revealed.  And I need not weary of it.  For You are the source of life and the reason behind it You are the inspiration and strength, the power of it all... I only want and need to keep my hold, my grip on Your Hand.

Oh God... I want to hold Your hand.




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