Journal excerpt... Jan18/13
I am quite captured by our place on the ridge line even if my discipline fails me and I keep having to refocus to stay there. Even now I am flitting around doing other details instead of sitting still... it is like I crave Your presence so much that I am overwhelmed, so deeply that I am scared to start or be still to receive.
I am all in Jesus. Every moment I know I am not with You I feel time has warped ahead and left me so far behind that a night is like a week. (thank you Lifehouse) But there is a certain helplessness felt in that. A desperation I suppose or despair even.
Please don't leave me here Jesus.
But I haven't... I am holding your hand... I am sitting on a ridge line with you leaning against my legs ... we are face to face.
Why am I not hearing You?
Haha really?
Hahaha You know what I mean! We dissolve into a laughter of absurdness and release for a moment but I take a deep breath in and ask what.?
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