The way I say I love You...

Journal entry... Nov 1/11
  
   Hey Jesus just wanted to check back in. You know what I figure... I think too much lol. I will never grasp what or where You are going or how, so I think if I just concentrate on staying at Your side that is the best move I can make. I know You love me... cause every now and again You give me a taste of knowing something deeper or with Your perspective. That is good enough for me. I will always pursue You because You are sweeter than life itself. And likewise I know You will pursue me because You love me with this crazy, passionate love that never gives up.
   My drive in to the city today was quite brilliant actually. I felt such a contentment and peace... in You... the sun was coming up and was not yet blinding but beautiful and still red.  The sky was almost clear and it resonated with it's vastness. I felt You very near. This has been one of those days... a good day.

What can I write? What do You have to say?
Remember the first time you saw Me?
I will never forget.
I love you with the same love as that day and as I had been loving you for your whole life
... what is changed? 
It is you. In the trust you gave Me much has changed within you. You don't feel that different... well you don't think you feel very old either hahaha. You are you know. You'll be coming to Me sooner than you realize.
It has taken me so long to learn even in part how to love You... I am sorry it takes me so long, but I want to thank You for being so patient. It makes me wonder what You will do with me for the remainder of my time here.

   As I sit with You listening to the music I think about our ministry... a phrase from the song stands out...

"this is the way I say I love You..."
    I suppose I love You, Jesus, by (sharing) teaching and loving them and You along all those around me. I suppose I say I love You by how completely I learn to serve those around me too. I know we have our secret place which at times is not so secret, lol, like when I blog it! but what I do out of the fruit of that speaks with a deeper power than my words ever will I suppose.