Morning Jesus....
  Okay I've learned another lesson ... In this courtship I need to take more and more time to KNOW You. Just a little is not what satisfies or keeps one happy... yah that was lame. Yikes where was my head? Anything that pulls me away from You is given more power for another time, to do it again and for longer. To actually look at the time of separation (not You from me but me from You) is horrific really because to be anywhere without You is so devastatingly empty. Lifeless. No temporary thing would ever be worth it.
Okay I got that.
   And it's a funny thing I've gotten things all along this road and I always think 'okay I know this now' but I see, looking back, that we can always KNOW it on a deeper level or in a different (very applicable) sense. It's like we never fully know. Huh there's a verse with that one lol. And so we travel on picking up what in some ways looks like the same lesson over and over but no... often it seems like the same thing but it is teaching a deeper truth or asking us to step into a deeper Knowledge which affects our walk with You our courtship (relationship) with You.
   Therefore... I will look up and into Your face and say I am sorry this is what I allow within and where I am. Please forgive me and bring me back to You and further into You. Left on my own I cannot. And we face forward and take a step in unison and I am glad.

So I just had a thought Jesus does this experience make me ready to share my time of lent? 
journal entry Sept 21 10