Jesus I am so filled with You. That desire to live this life so fully fills me till I cannot express it ... I want to be completely Yours.


   Jesus can we meet? I have to say this... Jesus, I want to be so close to you that I know what to say and when to whomever You desire.  This emotion I feel is so real and I know that I am only on such a small square of it and that knowledge just fills me with such awe. Only in Your timing and will, as everything always hinges on You. I guess I just thirst for it ... for it all. : )
   Live life with the knowledge of what this life is Be enraptured by it ... hold onto it all with both hands and hear me whisper and call and speak the truth of love of Myself into all situations, all seasons, all experiences. Live not looking and going through the motions of the necessary and unnecessary but let it be literally immersed by My presence, My voice, My purpose, My love, My call. I chose you Tam, in that dream at Yellowstone National park... I know you remember. I chose you and you know that now, though you only know in part ... now, is not the time we get to be together fully... this is our time of courtship... of getting to KNOW Me... and you seeing and experiencing how I KNOW you. Remember when I held your face and told you I loved you? Hear Me again.

Jesus it is painful how time flies by during these intimate moments I only have a few minutes left.  Maybe only a few moments left at the computer but can that stop us from being together? Can I not walk with You constantly, talking and sharing Myself and My love for you? Can I not enable you to have that heart of flesh, that heart and mind always wanting Me and My ways? Enabling your ears to hear and eyes to see? Is there anything I cannot do? You can, I limit myself by myself too often. Teach me to live in You instead. Never to be content anywhere else.
 
.... journal entry Sept 20 10