You tell me why things happen in the order they do.

You tell me why, when we see things play out, we aren't constantly on our faces in awe of a God that takes the time to love us so intimately and in the greatest of detail.

You tell me.

I connect somehow and I come to understanding through seeing and experiencing. There is always a huge limit to what I will experience through the day to day of my physical life. Decisions made will affect not only who I meet but where I am.  Therefore it just stands to reason that there is just so many things I could never be apart of, to experience, or to know.  However, I believe in God who isn't limited by anything. He seems to be using the 'sight' He's given me, to teach me and pull me along lines of understanding not just mentally but emotionally and spiritually. I am not sure to what degree others take what they watch and what they witness, what they hear in the emotion of another's voice and assimilate it into 'like feeling it for oneself' but I think God is using this avenue for me. Interestingly He isn't letting me rely on this alone for learning. He has been stretching me to KNOW and have FAITH in who He is ... apart from what I know (or in spite of what I know) He keeps putting into my days ... moments. Things that I could perceivably brush off (and unfortunately I'm sure I do far too often) . Sometimes they are... "did you see me there?" or "what if that is true... what does that mean to you? or where will a response from you lead?" Although many of my moments at the outset make me think this is so far beyond what I know or even have been taught that I feel that I must be the only one taking this step into the unknown. But on the other side of it (or in the midst of it) I think ... no I'm sure others are here, also being asked to enter into the understanding that leads to a living faith, but it may not look like me. In light of the fact that we are wonderfully made and with such individuality means that steps towards Him are also delightfully varied and when we are brave enough to share where and what God is doing with us it could, most possibly, draw out others to share and thus fill out the intimate knowing of Him within the body of Christ. The variety of ways is never in contradiction for when it is of God; He is. He cannot be anything but truth... He cannot be false.

So now I don't feel like I have to make you like me. And I don't need you to be like me so I don't feel alone. But I want to be brave and share myself lost in Him to you so that you will feel that much more free to share about Him in you. Nov. 17 10