Morning Jesus this week has zoomed by and it is crazy how little I have come to sit down by You.
So how are You doing? How are You feeling? What has been happening?

    I sit on the edge of my chair eager to hear anything You share. This makes You smile. I like that. I saw You yesterday Jesus. :) It was in a look of JJ's while she sang and it was in the exchange of looks between a couple... I cannot describe just how beautiful that was. It nearly takes my breath away. Huh. I really love You. I reach out to touch You... I touch Your knee and then You offer Your hand. I grasp it in both of mine and sigh, I cannot get enough of You. I look up again into Your eyes and look... really look, at what You are saying. I love my people so bad it hurts... I ache for the time that all is as it is intended and You are all here where I have prepared a place for you. You are here with Me. I don't just see you, I feel... I know the pain you are walking through, I hear your cries of brokenness and loss. The heat of rage is not lost I feel it's intensity as it courses throughout your body. The tragedy of being wrapped in a blindfold of lies and what it wroughts out in your life ... I watch, I reach out, I speak truth that heals and frees, I speak a truth that rebukes and binds up the dark, I speak truth. I speak love. ... can you hear me? are you listening? Ache for Me... as I ache for you! 
   Oh that my arms are like the arms of all your Beloved... I stand up and move onto Your lap so that I can wrap You up in an embrace. I hold You with firmness, I hold You with purpose, I hold You in love. Oh that I could love You more. I draw back and touch Your face. You are so beautiful... how You can carry such depth of love and know such pain yet reflect such peace and love and joy... it's crazy to wrap my mind around. Your eyes smile at me ... what an amazing honor it is having this  relationship with You... one that You don't need but You want.  Huh. 

Oct 8/10... journal entry.