Dear Reader...
In looking back over my summer, that has held such significance for me, I decided to gradually post other journals to fill in just how it became such an amazing season for me. Here is a entry from the beginning of July.

Hi Jesus... it's me, of course :) How was Your day? I am so glad I got to go to bible study today after all. I needed it. And the movie really reminded me to stop moping about and live and love life again ... yesh! Where have I been? I miss You in me. I miss really living. It has been all too easy to slip into my despairing melancholy of failing at life. Perhaps I need to quit being so determined to be a success. Ha. Jesus could You give me new eyes and a new heart and a deeper passion and focus that refuses to leave Your face? Ahhh... Jesus I cannot seem to settle down.. it's been a while since I have felt like this... I miss it. I feel like I want to go a hundred directions in the desire to just love You.

So where are we? In the middle of a field. The bearded barley is tall and we can run, fall, sit, and yet, when we get up and look around it's like no one has even touched it. So we run... with abandon! It's like when you are a kid and you get to be in a school after hours and that desire to just run as fast as you can down the deserted hallways wells up... the sound of your runners squeaking on the polished hallways that are only lit by the red light from the emergency exits and an occasional open door. There is something so grand about doing it! hahahahaha. We run with our arms outstretched , laughing with that same delight! The field that seemed so green and flat slowly rises up... the color is changing too. By the time we reach the top of the hill we are surrounded by a gold that is only outdone by the sun itself. It lights to a magical color a huge boulder. We climb up and sit, washed by the rays of light streaming down upon us. We close our eyes and lift our faces to receive it's warmth, it's touch. I have been feeling so needy lately I haven't been where I need to be. Next to You. Without a look You reach over and hold my hand I grab on so grateful for Your mercy. My heart is so full of love for You. I rest on You and relish the moment of just being with You. I can picture Deb here. She walks toward us through the golden barley that is so crazy high. She gets to our boulder and reaches up her hand, with her beautiful smile beaming. We each grab a hand and hoist her up easily. She sits between us and lets out a deep sigh.