Jesus speaking in the dark

journal entry... July 11/10

Before I go to blog Jesus, I need to come to You and spend some time with You. I love what I experienced in the body (of Christ) today. It was good what he shared about bitterness and it's roots and fruit... to call us all on it. Then to have that moment of loving her on behalf of us all was truly a growing up moment. But right now I just want to come to You. Again, I lay down myself and my happenings and just wait for You. Where are we Jesus? I don't see anything but black Jesus. I think, however, it is because we are in the dark.
We are lying down and just listening. We are lying in opposite directions with our heads together. The only thing that joins us is that we are holding one another's hand. You know what this is like? What? When you release things into my hands. It is then a time to let go. You are then no longer asked to see and understand, or to think you need to be apart of or control... to let go. Just giving it to Me and letting it disappear from your known realm as it comes into my Hands. This darkness represents trust.
I am also showing you why it needs to be dark sometimes. Sometimes darkness reminds you that it is Me that is in control... and that I am better at it than you.
And sometimes darkness is a gift... it allows you to let go. Kind of like giving you permission which is giving you back the freedom you should have been living in.
Remind me of this darkness. When I forget to separate the sin from the person. When I accept living in fear and stress and anxiety. When I am open and hurt and start the cycle of looking for what I didn't get, from someone other than You, and pile on layer after layer which buries the very thing that needs to be exposed to be free. No, sin isn't alright but it Yours to judge and we are not asked to carry it... so remind me of this darkness when I need to forgive and put it completely back into Your hands.