Dearest Reader,
Yes I am still here. I have been quiet on my blog for a very long time, however, I have been journeying through some deep things, making big changes, and growing into new perspectives. I was rereading my journal from the other day and thought it was time to post again.
Love ya.
Morning Jesus,
I am about to embark on a new wall. Be my hands and heart and ready me to segue into conversation as it is intended for you to speak. Be my all, my skill, ability, heart and passion. Prepare me also for being a blessing to Chantal if she makes it out here.
We walk down our lane again this morning and while we soak in the sun and the fresh air we are even more so filled with one another. I reach out and hold Your hand and You immediately swing it up to gently kiss my hand as it remains entwined with Yours. A laugh splashes out that I can no longer hold in than I can stop breathing.
A little scary, a lot excited, completely lost lol, and waiting.
You release my hand and instead wrap Your arm around my shoulders and draw me into You.
Probably why You aren't getting anything much done today
Ha! yeah.
Don't worry I got this.
okay. I close my eyes and try to feel my response. My lungs are laboring to breathe enough air in to relieve the pressure in my chest... My mind reels to the basics, if I believe what I say I do then I really have nothing to fear; do I?
Your hand grips my chin and tilts my face up to Yours. We are only inches apart I feel the intensity of Your stare and we share the air between us as the eternal seconds tick...
You are mine... my Beloved, you are mine.
I am Yours... and where my knees would buckle and I would sink to bow before You... You instead wrap me up holding me against Your chest so I can hear Your heart beat.
huh... so like You. I think as my thoughts sift down to the floor and my breathing slows. All of this is Yours not mine.
